Alone or Lonely

When i look back.. i went through such a state of mind, many times in my life...

In my childhood and  teenage , i had  lot of such experiences..

Now i can make the conclusion that i experienced loneliness..

In my childhood and teenage 

Even though i had many friends,

I went through the state of loneliness... 

Because i was searching for one who can understand me well..

Even with out uttering a word...

One who can understand the real me...

One who can accept me as a good friend..

One who need me as a good friend..

One who ask my help

I tried my best to become transparent ...

But i never felt the warmth of care and love..

The Child in me badly wished for such a good friend ...

But i failed.

In my childhood dreams...

I used to visualize that one day an angel will come..

In a pink gown, with soft wings,a magic wand in her hand..

And will play in the green paddy fields near my school..

And many friends will join us....

We will play in rain...

That dream is not yet finished..

Because the goddess of sleep took me to some other unknown world every night.... Part of my childhood and teenage fantasy..

When i started analyzing things from other persons stand point 

i got some answers...

Some times some facts will make us sad...
but ...have to accept it .

I am  not a wanted friend

Finally i realized and accepted it as a fact.
May be I am not a good friend...

One who don't have the qualities of a good friend..

When i observe and analyze  it from other persons perspective....
Possibilities are there ...

That was a good solution for my intellect...

There was many ,who admired me because of some qualities in me that i was not even aware..

But...

The child in me was in a state of confusion..

Whether to laugh or cry..

But smiled.. Because there was no other option..

But Now... Even now ...Even after long years

When i am going through such a state I am not able to distinguish between that ...

Intellectually i know lonely is not a synonym for alone..The word lonely connotes isolation and dejection...A missed absence of companions when its applied to persons. Alone means complete by oneself..A state of solitude...

hmmmmm.... Heavy theoretical stuffs...

Even now... I am not able to distinguish between them ...

Feel so Sad.. 

But Intellect is firing me left and right ....

My Philosophical and  Intellectual part of mind is forcing  me  to conclude it as a state of solitude...

But my Emotional part of mind is not ready to compromise...

With lot of Compassion, My Commonsense is helping me to tune myself to higher..

To  listen HIS whisper.... 

To listen to My Inner Voice...  

Keep moving  my dear...

Keep moving my dear ..

With out any regret...  

Keep moving my dear.. 

Honestly ....

I Badly wish for a great satsang....

Hmmmm... 

Let the intellect and mind  fight...

May be one day they will come to a conclusion ...

One day the beautiful  Butterfly will come out of the cocoon...

I can wait.. 

with love...

Rhythm of life...

The way you make love is the way God will be with you.....

                                                                          ...Rumi

The never-ending rhythm of the Life... love

Life is a journey ... like a picnic.. on the way we can see many things...

for sure we will reach the destination..
but on the way we must learn to enjoy the path ..

its the part of journey...and its the beauty of journey....
and its the important rule of this game

if we can tune our heart to nature she will teach us how to live...

symmetry is  beauty... 

nature loves symmetry .. 

..love is the force that bind the whole universe together...

when the creation experience love they are experiencing divinity..

if we are able to keep the fire of pure unconditional love in our heart...

we can enjoy each moments in life ..

otherwise we will wait for the destination to celebrate

Tune the mind to pure unconditional love ...
be with that..
the divine presence of the pure consciousness God...
love is the way to realize god

start from simple exercise...
with awareness..

we have to practice the art of giving and expressing LOVE..
we can start giving love unconditionally to those who are in our inner circle
parents.. spouse .. grand parents.. sister..brother..
and with some one special...

No need to inform others..never expect anything in return...
Just love..

Again i know its difficult...because our individual ego may resist..
Pure Love is the way to sublimate our ego and reach the higher..
...just start it..

The whole universe will support it..
Because Love is the basic substratum of life..
Basic substratum of creation..

of course its not easy ...
we have to learn it like a baby try to walk...

possibilities are there to fall...
so what.. hold on to something higher and get up and try ..

.. my friend used to remind me the following  powerful statement 

i love this statement.. because that statement is from a pure heart..

and i used to shout this when things are not moving as per my plan...

" wake up man... . things are as bright as ever.. believe its possible "

its a powerful prayer..because i heard it  from a sincere mind..

and i strongly believe the power of those words..

 

let us rise in love ..

deep in our heart we can find the seed ...

..water it ... it will grow .. it can give shade to many ...

..let us explore the sincere divine love deep with in us..

let us grow together..to rise in LOVE..

 

...with love...